there're so many things that i've done, which i now feel i shouldn't have done....
there're so many people i've met, whom i keep wishing i'd never met....
life would have been so perfect if we could go back and erase parts that we don't like...
hmmm... perhaps if everyone had that power, we would really have a tough time!!!!!...
like for instance, you meet some guy today, and then a month later, or worse still, a year later the person calls you up and says that he's gonna delete you from his record.... now if you were really involved with the person, there'd be quite a lot to delete on your side....
there're times when in between two individuals, one person gets attached to the other person more than how much the other person is in return.... in that case, things get really screwed...
then you end up thinking and acting like a maniac.... you have no idea what you wanna do or where your life is headed.... all u want to do is maybe just hate everyone.... you gain pleasure from solitude.... there're no emotions within you.... you become somewhat like a dead guy.... a vegetable.... the world revolves around you.... you see people speaking... but your ear hears only noise.... you start wishing you were lost on an island.... an island with no one except for you.... your head starts spinning.... suddenly you find yourself stuck in a whirlpool.... your entire body starts spinning.... your head starts splitting.... you start vomiting blood.... there's blood all over you.... you feel like as if your gonna die.... but the Creator keeps playing games with you.... he doesn't let you die... but he lets you see hell.... you suddenly wish you could kill yourself... the world is just not a place for you.... you just wanna get out of here.... you don't want to go to the Creator as well.... you wish there was a world in between these worlds.... a real world.... unlike this fake world.... this fake universe.... a world filled with hate.... a world where people laugh at you when you're suffering.... a world where understanding each other has become a tedious task.... you keep wandering for a place to hide.... you start running.... you're in an open desert.... you keep walking and walking.... but you find no shade or a place to rest.... but when you tire and fall to your knees, you're suddenly surrounded by people.... people who jeer and mock at you.... you try to go forward and touch one of these people.... but your hand passes through... these people are not real.... they're just an illusion.... this illusion keeps following you wherever you go.... they torment you throughout your life.... you can never get rid of them.... even at death they won't leave you alone.... they wait till you're torn to shreds by the waiting scavengers.... then suddenly amidst all the chaos, you hear a familiar voice.... you turn back and see your friend waiting for you with an extended arm.... you crawl towards your friend.... all you can think about now is how this wonderful friend has come to rescue you, even though all the others disowned you.... this friend becomes your only shimmer of hope.... you keep crawling towards your friend.... as you approach him, you suddenly see wires full of thorns wrapped around his hands.... for a minute you try to figure out what that meant.... but then when you look closer, you find out that what was wrapped around his hand was in fact a garland of flowers and not thorns as you'd imagined.... you curse yourself for doubting your friend, even though it wasn't intentional.... as you inch closer towards your friend, you keep wishing secretly that he wouldn't turn out to be an illusion as the previous people.... you reach your friend.... your friend extends his arm... he lifts you up.... you can feel him.... you feel much stronger.... with his support you can walk again.... having finally found a person you can actually trust, you start rejoicing.... suddenly, as you walk, you start noticing scavengers making their way towards you.... but in the company of your friend, you have a newfound courage.... you feel you can face them.... but then, you look towards your side where your friend had been.... he's suddenly disappeared.... he's nowhere beside you.... you take a look back.... there's your friend.... he's no longer got the calm look on his face.... he reminds you of a hungry wild beast now.... and he's got a dagger raised to a stabbing position.... before you can say anything he brings it down on your chest.... full eight inches inside your chest.... your eyes pop out.... you lie on the ground.... your heart has been punctured.... your body lies limp and cold.... for a last few seconds you lie there looking blankly up at the sky.... the friend whom you'd loved and trusted had just betrayed you.... you wish you'd never known such a cold and calculating person.... a person who likes to nibble you off your back.... as you lie on the ground, you feel your legs getting torn apart.... the pain is unbearable..... but you don't want to look in that direction.... all you want to do now is to just get over with it.... your body becomes frozen.... your brain is numb.... a cold wind blows over you and brings death into your nostrils.............
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